yaboybr0ady:

I am a fuck up.There’s so many ways that saying can be taken. One, my mother. Two, my daughter. Three, Chelsea and four, Chandler.

Chandler. I don’t even know where to start with you. Whenever I hear your name, or see a text pop up into my phone, I get the erge to break down and punch shit. I don’t know why. I think i’m mad at myself, for letting myself get annoyed with you as much as I do. I think i’m annoyed with you because i’m so fucking in love with you, it drives me insane. I don’t like the feeling of being in love, and knowing I can get my heart broken as fast as I fell in love. That’s what scares me. I have a guard up. My entire life with everyone, had a guard up. At one point you broke it down, but then it goes back up when shit happens again. I love you and miss you more than anything, and you know you’ll always have a place in my heart. I fucked up, I know I did. I’m a fucked up person for treating you, and doing the shit I did to you. At the end of the day, I know it’s all because you love me that you always kept coming back. I hope you find someone that treats you amazin, because unfortunately, I couldn’t give you that because I’m a fuck up.